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I Love you to bits, you used to always be there for me. I hope you'll come back and talk to me. I still think about you all the time
Taking The Pain For You
Tears drip down
Across my cold face
They show you what?s inside
All this sadness, All this hate
This hate is not towards others
It is directed to myself
I hate myself
Because of the pain you felt
I think I?m doing the right thing
All these thoughts, directing
But I look into your eyes
I see the pain you feel inside
You show me your arms
I shake and my eyes are full of tears
Sliding down my face
Is a liquid line of fear
I can?t believe you did this
Why did you have to?
Didn?t you get it
When I said I loved you?
I think in my mind
The only thing I knew
Is I made you feel that pain
So I have to take it back from you
I look at a bottle
It?s full of pills
I swallow them into my cold throat
All this pain, I have to kill
I find a rope
Tie it in a knot
This is my escape
This is all I?ve got
I rest my head in it
This head is now so full of shame
I let go of all feeling
I?m taking back your pain (letting my feelings go down the drain)
Thoughts swirl through my mind
As my gasps of air shorten
I?ll escape this way
I?m not important
I loved you so much
But hurt you so badly
I?ll leave this world with grief
And take your pain to the grave with me
You'll have no more and now you'll know how much I love you.
A Crimson Phoenix
A crimson phoenix full of beauty and grace
You see the stunningness in it?s face
It wanders around in my thoughts and dreams
The sight of it makes me gleam
It takes care of me
And stands by my side
I see a crimson phoenix
And I feel it inside
I think of it all the time
And it stays in my thoughts forever
I love a crimson phoenix
Will I get rid of it? Never!
A crimson phoenix is amazing
Both inside and out
And I don?t believe
I would ever survive without
It shows me I am wrong
In some of the things I do
I know a crimson phoenix
Is forever true
I am lonely without it
And when I say it, I mean it
He is my true friend
A crimson phoenix
Though there is distance apart
I let my emotions show
I want to hold a crimson phoenix
And never want to let go
A crimson phoenix helps me see
The ugliness inside of me
I wish I may, I wish I might
See a crimson phoenix tonight.
